I am now officially a non-smoker.  Wish me luck!

A buddy that I served with in Iraq and I talked about PTSD and how ours was caused by the jobs that we did.  I need to think how to word this, so I will post more later, but it was a really good talk.

Ok, so my wife and I realized that I needed constant visual reminders that I hadn't done my chores yet...so we went and got two dry-erase boards...one is on the fridge and the other one is at the bottom of the stairs leading to my man-cave.  We put my jobs on them.  Lo and behold, I didn't forget anything!!!  Dani was finally stress free today and I felt less guilty because I actually pulled my weight...

I have come to the realization lately that my emotions have been all over the place.  I haven't had this much unpredictability since I went back on meds.  I think it's because of the birth of my daughter.  There is so much more emotion in a normal day and a lot more responsibility.  I love it, but I think it is adversely affecting my emotional stability because of how strong the feelings have been.  Obviously, I would never trade my daughter for anything, so I think it's time to talk to my doc about upping the daily dosage of my mood stabilizer.  I guess we'll see.

I am actually looking forward to the challenge this time around.  I need to ask my manager if it's OK to chew gum if it helps with the cravings.  I know that the uniform policy says gum is a no no, but what can it hurt to ask?

Well, I found out today that my daughter, Caley, is starting to go through separation anxiety when mommy is out of earshot and line of sight.  My wife was taking a shower and Caley was crying so hard a stranger might have thought I was hurting her.  It destroyed my emotional stability completely.  Of course, Caley could sense that I was very upset and she cried even harder.  Anyone have any ideas of how to cope with this?  It's going to be a long few months if I can't find I way to overcome this.  I am emotionally drained after just a few days of this.

I have been making some big changes to the website.  I wasn't satisfied with the way the site reached out to its intended audience.  Let me know what you think of the (as of yet unfinished) new layout.  I would appreciate feedback from anyone willing to offer it.

I had one of those really good days today where I almost felt normal...It was amazing.  One of my buddies asked me to be a part of a new project that he is working on that will hopefully send a message of hope to those who need to hear it.  I am honored that he asked me and look forward to working with him to make his vision a reality.

After all of the craziness that was the holidays and my baby girl being born, I needed to get back into the fold.  I missed two appointments.  I completely forgot about them because my entire world revolved around my daughter and the holidays at Wegmans.  I'm glad that I didn't 'forget' to make up for those appointments.  I have been doing so well.  The last thing I want is to regress.